I woke up this morning feeling just so shocked and unloved.

I KNOW I will be ok no matter what the outcome is.I don't know this H. It is like the old H died years ago. He fell into a depression and changed w substance abuse but he was still loving. He loves kids, loves family, wanted to be superdad,etc....

I expected him to lash out on me but to tell me I'm being selfish and how will this affect him and he doesnt know if he can handle it just shocked me. How can any man know he has a child out there at not acknowledge being the father! I feel as though the old H died. I do not love this H. I do not know this H.


Should I tell his father about pregnancy. I know he feels for me since he is also a LBS and when I saw him a few days after the bomb he hugged me and told me he was shocked, almost cried and said he has no words to tell me since he is also a LBS and know I am in pain.

M:27 H: 33
M:10/07
T:9 yrs
H moves away for drug recovery: 3/2010
ILYBINILWY & wants D:5/02/10
Confirmed OW:5/21
Told MIL:5/25(only concerned about H's recovery)
Told FIL:5/28(will speak to him)