i can see myself spiralling out of control on the spending part. i wanted to drop money on a brand new house. i want to go back to school i want to take a long vacation whenever i am out of the house, i'm buying stuff to justify my time out. bought a really nice tv, toaster oven. what next? buying all these things isn't solving anything.
i need a plan. a real plan. where do i want to be in a year? what do i want to do?
i have no direction. moving home is really expensive. why not buy in the city where i am now? so let's figure out where in the city and what i want to buy. townhome. 2000 sq ft for just me.
i want to be away from here for my birthday. where do i go? san fran? i want to go for a week. ok. will need cheap lodging and a car.
i may be over my head. but i can't sit here and do nothing. my parents think i'm just nuts. i don't like to sit at home and do nothing. i get squirrely. i have to be doing something. learning something.
but the spending is getting out of hand. i don't know how to control it. something to discuss with ic today.
