I have be handling the situation very well until yesterday. I saw my H driving down the street. Looked like he had someone in the car with him and my S said he saw him at the gym with a group of people. It kind of bothered me and I'm not sure why. I have to keep reminding myself that I deserve more than he is willing to give me. Yes, I could continue to wait and hope that someday he will give me more than the crumbs he gives me now but I don't think it is healthy for me nor is it a good thing for my children to observe. The only thing that I am missing from him is his companionship when he felt like being with me which sometimes wasn't as often as I thought is should be...and sometimes wasn't all that comfortable if he wasn't in a good mood. I am better off alone.
I sent my H an email on Monday saying I thought he was going to come get his things over the weekend and if he was working on the divorce paperwork. He told me he would come get his things on Thursday (today) and the paperwork should be ready in the next day or two. No word from him since. I will send him an email today asking if he is coming to get his things and if the paperwork is done. He is sooooo good at procrastinating, I'm sure he will put me off again in some way. That is the whole reason why I don't want to do this anymore. If I would let him, he would keep dangling the carrot forever. I never wanted a divorce but I can't keep chasing a carrot that I'm never gonna get...plus that carrot is no longer looking that appetizing.
glam-Sorry to hear about the job situation. What happened to the business you were starting with your H? I am glad you are staying positive...it can be difficult in times like this but your kids need you to be strong. We don't need to be stuck and confused even if our H's are!!! Are you still living in the same area? Do you see your H often?
