I made it through the night, and hey--that wasn't snoring, that was wheezing!
Came to work this morning, going to take it slow and see how it goes. I have an important meeting this afternoon that was already rescheduled once since I was sick last week. Actually I forgot about it and just plain stood her up last week since I was home! So I have to meet today, she is driving an hour to see me.
I just had a hilarious/terrifying battle. If anyone had been in my room this morning they would have laughed at me! I have 3 or 4 travel mugs in my classroom sink covering the bottom of it (yeah I am a little messy!).
I was coughing and went over there to get a drink. Turned on the water and startled a big (2" is big to me!)brown spider who was apparently hiding among the mugs. He scurried out and I jumped!
However he was no match for my dry erase board cleaner which I pumped on him vigorously...I always always try to immobilize them first so they can't jump on me when I try to kill them. Then I smashed him with an oversized spoon. That'll teach him. Did I mention I hate/fear spiders above all else?? Give me a python, a mouse, just not a spider!
**Once when newlyweds we had a brown recluse infestation in our apt in Wichita. They had to bomb it TWICE. One day from front door to couch, coming in after work, we counted 13. Yes it was my worst nightmare come true.
Anyway one night I came in and one was on the entryway little slab of tile. I used the first weapon I could find, a can of Pam cooking spray, to stun him before I hit him with a shoe. I wiped up the carnage w/a paper towel. Dan came home a short time later, stepped onto the freshly-Pammed-tile and took a mean fall. Oops...
ROTFLMAO!!!! OMG!!! That is hysterically funny about the Pam cooking spray! The visual in my head is priceless!
13 brown recluse???? That is scary. Those sucker put out strong venom that will kill your flesh and is deadly! I'm shuddering thinking about it. My worst nightmare would be finding 13 palmeto bugs between my front door and the living room. I swear I'd turn around and leave and possibly never come back. They make my skin crawl thinking about it and they fly too....so much worse than just crawlers.
Hope your day is fabulous! It's a steamy 89 degrees here today. Going to feel like 100. UGH!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Thanks btw to all who checked in on me yesterday. It is nice to feel loved! Just need to work harder on making similar connections locally so I have friends to hang out with when Dan has the kids! Not a lot of single people work in my school! In fact I actually can't think of any off the top of my head...
So I was browsing a home/garden website over lunch and saw the fountain Dan got me for mother's day. It was WAY more expensive than I realized, like twice the price!! It is so random to me, he spends more on my gifts now than he did when we were together!?
Got home and fired up the string trimmer. Did about 15 minutes of work and called it good, not wanting to push myself.
My Area Education Agency Consultant came down today to review one of my 'monitor' kid's test scores with me. Based on annual testing, he needs to start working with me every day for one class period--he will be a freshman. Between this and the kdg kid coming in with no English, they may not get to use me in all the ways they want to next year. Good news for me even if it means I have to have a tough conversation down the road about not meeting all of their needs!
Forgot to mention that after taking a long nap yesterday I did go to my counseling appt. since it didn't involve any physical exertion I decided it was worth it.
I have been working on being a better listener and not letting Dan or my mom bring me down with their 'crazymaking' tactics, in her words. Basically leading and teaching them how to treat me by my actions, what conversations I encourage, which ones I end, etc. Anyway she told me last night it sounded like I was making good progress on living my life and not letting their attitudes determine mine.
Upon reflection, I guess it has been paying off. I got no fewer than 6 nice texts and a phone call from Dan today. Also my mom called to see how I was doing this afternoon. And we talked for 30 minutes, all good. My BIL lost his job and mom actually started talking all about when she and my dad were newlyweds and he lost his job, and went on and just shared a lot of her memories with me. It was nice to talk to her and not have her crying or trying to guilt me!
Oh and even R has been texting and emailing me lately. Don't get me wrong I still want only a friendship with him, but I think that actually took pressure off both of us. He has been going through a lot of crap at work and I have been a sounding board for him, I guess you could say.
I just feel like I am in a good place...I enjoy all of these interactions because I am not doing them to get something and I am not giving anybody anything (my time, my attention, my opinion) except what I want to give them. Much better than feeling obligated/guilty/fearful, for sure!!
This isn't to say that all is perfect. My mom cried to me yesterday bc I wasn't particularly interested in going to a giant family picnic on Monday, as I already told the kids we could relax and swim at home--I don't get them back until Sunday evening. However I just let her cry and try to guilt me, and kept my position. And last night Dan was in a pissy mood because he didn't know if there was baseball practice or not due to rain...he called me wanting to know if I had called to find out, what was the deal, etc etc. But, it was his night. I just very sweetly gave him the coach's number and got off the phone.
It sounds like you have your ducks all in a row. As time moves forward, things will get easier. Until you daughter and son become teenagers.
Like your friend R, the lady I am seeing has had her employer make recent changes in policy that schedules her work to cut into her free time. She does not like that. Hopefully, by the weekend after this upcoming weekend we will have relaxing time together. I really like her a lot.
