Make no mistake, this is the HARDEST thing you will ever experience.
Detatching, GAL, understanding MLC, all of it.
But True is so right.
There is nothing you can do to make this go faster or to woo your H back.
I will be really honest with you…
You think you want to but you don’t. My H, came home too soon during his first crisis period. Seven years later, we ended up right back where we had started with that one, only way way worse. It has been almost 3 years since the first bomb of this time. I am very different now. So this has been a good thing for me.
Listen to the people posting to you Rlay. We have all been there. While not a single one of us can guarantee a restored M.
We can help you understand and move forward in your healing.
If your H ever wakes up and wants to come home, you will HAVE to be healed first. It will be the only way that either of you will survive what is to come…
My H, is moving in his tunnel again. Having moments of clarity, moments of regret, moments of talking about his issues. And for what ever reason, he is choosing to share with me. It is honestly the most painful thing I have ever experienced. Much worse than the bomb, much worse than my pain. Just watching and listening, seeing his hurt, is very hard. If I was not where I am, I would not be able to do this.
For those that are going to get excited, don’t. They are moments. He has had them before and for me, they mean very little. Except that he is going forward trying to heal and backwards to not have to feel the pain that he has.
Anyway…Rlay…
You can do this.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
