Thank you all for your support and thoughts and ideas..It really helps

It is all very confusing to figure out
and why the mlcer turns their back on their kids
in my rational mind, I cant undersatnd and I dont think I ever will
maybe only the Mlcer can explain their reasons at some point
but again, it will be so late
and they continue to avaoid any responsibility for their actions and maybe some can rationalize it in their minds and that may work for a while..but I guess you cant really esacape the pain you have caused others in the end, you will be haunted forever
no one wins

But as many as you have said--we the parent have to find ways to make it all work
and in many ways my life is really good and everything is working
maybe we are suppose to be without X
maybe that is what is best for now
peace


married 14 years
H 42
bomb 2/07 IDLYA
D final 3 /09
M ow D ow