And here I am .... H's MLC ....

[PEI]

Hi PEI,

Its a difficult road to keep the PMA up and to be realistic about wieght issues,,,yuck!

Since there is no hope left in my M and we will be D'd on July 20th I was hoping that I would start feeling good about myself again, that the self-esteem would return buhhht it hasn't.

I know I shouldn't compare but i'm still trying to lose weight,, M: 5'7/158lbs use to be 126lbs, H: 6'0/248lbs, OW: 5'7/120lbs approx. I hope when H ML to her he crushes her,,lol

I know, not nice and don't dwell, I just guess I have to demonize him and her in order to stop loving him,,double yuck!!

WE WILL BE BLESSED IN LIFE IF WE ARE GOOD TO OURSELVES, right?

Hang in there,
Kim

Hi Kim ...

You've been here longer than me, and riding a pretty wild roller coaster judging by your siggy ... but a couple of things jumped out at me that I have to comment on ...

First, why are you waiting for your D to feel good about yourself? By now I would hope that you had GAL and learned enough about yourself to love yourself anyway and any size. Treat yourself well - your self esteem is not going to magically return because of some date on a calendar - it will return as you are kind to yourself and rediscover that you are a beautiful woman, inside and out, just the way you are! Do what you love, to he!! with H and OW - he doesn't deserve you anyway

Second, you have some detachment work to do my friend! Caring about her and her weight, hoping he crushes her (although a fun thought I know ) having to demonize him in order to stop loving him all scream waaaaaay too emotionally involved still.

And third ... who said you had to stop loving him? You can love him and move on, it's far less poisonous to your soul.

Peace
PEI