Today W did thank me for doing the clothes, and the I left a note telling her that I took the kids with me to my meeting at McDonalds. I also left her something in the fridge for dinner. I was not trying to do anything nice for her. I guess I just thought it the right thing to do. She told me she is taking the kids to a movie this weekend, and I said okay. It is for the kids.
She does go in the room by herself. I am glad, so I can come here to get out my frustration and not at her.
This is just part of her sneaky game to look good in the D. I am so skeptical of her actions. I lack so much trust in her.
I do treat her courteously, and that is the best I can do.
This is the best you can do right now. As difficult as it is, try not to be mean or even resentful. Pigskin suggested to me to try and treat her as a woman you just met. You would be kind and courteous but not flirty or loving. Or, picture her five years down the road after she has left and you have gone on to a fantastic life, better than what you have now. Your kids have adjusted with your love, understanding and help. Now she says she wants to come back. Sorry, lady, I'm doing just fine without you. I wouldn't have it any other way. No more drama, lies, back stabbing and being made to feel like dirt.
You are hurting-that's to be expected. In recent posts, it also sounds like you are finding the strength you need. You realize what you must do and are taking the difficult steps to do it.
Strength, courage, honor. I think Coach says that.
