Wow – a big morning….W and I ML for the first time in years this morning (was a little awkward for both of us, but nice)…a little rushed as we feared the kids waking up (she said we need to “get this over with”, given the awkwardness about being physical, which I agreed with).
How it happened: she had just showered and I said “I promise – no monkey business today” (after what had happened the day before) and she said “why not?”…the rest was history, as they say. The night before, she had put on the bed a new box of condoms saying “we should be prepared”, but was still pretty surprised by her initiative this morning.
Later this morning, I had followed with an email saying how much I enjoyed our morning and she countered with “I want you to be happy”…all in all, the most encouraged I’ve been to see her make an effort (still have things we need to deal with as we get past the A, obviously, but feel we’ve made some great strides – here’s to it continuing)! Her actions do seem to confirm that the A is over (of course, still always a little nervous about it rearing its ugly head again, and do need to talk to her some more about her trip the weekend of 6/5 to OM “land”).
Have also noticed that she’s been much less protective of her cell/computer (though not encouraging access or anything like that) and has almost been overly appreciative of the things I’m doing to support her work (i.e., watching the kids while she works and needs to go to meetings).
Am giddy over this development today (who wouldn’t be after such a “drought”)…know it’s going to take a while to feel “normal” being physical again (given the years of that not happening) and it did feel a little “herky jerky”…
Need to maybe change my handle to “LookingUp”, NLG
