And here I am .... H's MLC ....

[PEI]

As Jack has mentioned....(and trust me when I say this) - STOP ALL SNOOPING (I know you had a few accidents, etc) NOW. You really do not want to know what is going on, if anything is at all. The less you know the better off you will be.

You may have moments where you feel like..."if I just knew I would be in a better position" - trust me you don't want to know. Why?

This makes the reconciliation process a lot tougher.

Yep. I get this now. And I have. When I stopped and thought about it, I realized that I would have a VERY hard time removing the mental pictures I was creating and since reconciliation is my ultimate goal, I'm not doing anything that will make that harder from my end.

Also, be very careful who you speak to about your sitch. Another no no.

I have a lot of people in the loop - selectively. And I've pulled WAY back in how much info I share or not. I've learned pretty quickly that most people do NOT understand what I'm trying to do or why.

Can you let us know what some of your short term goals are for yourself?

Sure can

1. Exercise 3-5 times / week. I'm down 17.2 lbs and want to hit 30 by August 1st.
2. Continue to eat so much better than I have in years ... I'm learning to nourish my body instead of fill it!
3. Continue to nurture new friendships and enjoy the company of new friends.
4. Become consistent with activity in my part-time career/business.
5. Read one new personal growth book per month on top of some purely indulgent enjoyment reading.

Oh...one other thing to consider....this process will change you if you allow it to. How it changes you, you decide. It is all about YOU.

Soooooooo true! I am already a different person than I was 6 mos ago, or even 2 or 3 mos ago! I have grown and learned so much ... and perhaps the most important thing I've learned is to never stop growing ...

Peace
PEI