Sorry that you find yourself here. You already seem to be getting some VERY good advice.
As Jack has mentioned....(and trust me when I say this) - STOP ALL SNOOPING (I know you had a few accidents, etc) NOW. You really do not want to know what is going on, if anything is at all. The less you know the better off you will be.
You may have moments where you feel like..."if I just knew I would be in a better position" - trust me you don't want to know. Why?
This makes the reconciliation process a lot tougher.
Also, be very careful who you speak to about your sitch. Another no no.
It looks like you've got your head in the right place. Now you really need to start focusing on YOU.
Can you let us know what some of your short term goals are for yourself?
Oh...one other thing to consider....this process will change you if you allow it to. How it changes you, you decide. It is all about YOU.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
