The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Mila, you are very perceptive.
I am reluctantly closing the book. I promised her I would no longer fight her on the divorce. I'm nothing if not a man of my word.
I realize that this is a journey she has to take alone. I cannot help her. I want to believe differently but it's not to be. She is moving things forward and I can change nothing. I never could be "perfect enough" and that's because this is her journey. Possibly unresolved issues from before we met.
I really can't go back to the way things were prior to all of this. But I have not yet closed the door on something new. She has for now. I have to be fore this is over.. The divorce is going to happen as far as I can tell. I cannot get sucked into the insanity and I realize even if I could change her mind I wouldn't feel that's the right thing to do at this point. I feel like she wouldn't be done with her changes and discovery. I've felt that way for a while, but discarded those feelings early on because I didn't trust my instinct. I trust them now. They have been right even when I wasn't willing to listen to them. Go figure....

Thanks Mila. It's an interesting ride - get your money's worth!

AJ