Shel, Sorry you lost those posts, I was looking at the response you had to make a list of things you were going to do for yourself before it was deleted. I hope you wrote them down, it was a good start from what I remember reading.
You also made mention that you were going to celebrate the little things....oh so important early on, I was glad to read that. I celebrate the small things all the time, little milestones. You need those little successes to get you through. Your doing great.
Formerly "missherlove"
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.