Hey, I'm up. Baby's been moving a lot and I guess I've got a lot on my mind.
Thanks for your response, NM!
Yes, I will try to let him take the lead. I tried with this email, but I just didn't wait long enough. (Was he really going to write, though? Or was he just thinking about it?)
I decided that I wanted to see him at my apartment. I don't want to see him in a public place like a restaurant because a) I just feel like the first time he's "seeing" his baby (when we left she hadn't moved yet) should be more private and b) a public place sort of implies being there for more than 15 minutes.
So when I write him back I'm going to suggest coming to the apartment. I'm going to really try hard to be respectful and appreciative of what I can be. (Thanks for the gifts, thanks for carseat installation), and I *might* ask him how work is. But those would be my only initiatives (besides to try to get her to move for him) and I'll let him do the rest. When he sees my apartment and all of my/our things and sees me ready to pop, I think he will feel apologetic. I'm not sure how that will come across. I expect it will come across as insecurity-- "Do you hate me?"-- and if he asks that I'd say of course not. I told you already I'll always love you.
(As Tina Turner says, though, what's love got to do with it?)
I think I can be friendlier at my apartment than I would be out at some restaurant/coffee shop. So that will help too.
