Thanks Sgfan! I agree!! I am attempting to do just that! That's what it's all about really...having a best friend that you love to be with, spend time, and live the rest of your life with. It's hard to try and have patience when you don't know where things are headed...it's kinda killin me...I just keep reminding myself it's only been a week and half since we had coffee and hung out a couple times.
Today was our son's last t-ball game, it got canceled because of rain, but there was a pizza party instead. We were both there, he bought my pizza, we visited with each other and other parents and it all seemed so natural. It just kills me...I just want it to be like it was, though I realize it's a process. Everyone has their opinion about everything, doubts and such, and who deserves what. After all we've been through I just don't care what other people think...and have come to the realization, like in the book, no one else is gonna live my life...only "I" am gonna live my life.
Even after everything...I still enjoy being in his company and visiting with him. Maybe once we are able to spend some more time hanging out and chatting I will have a better idea. So far, everything seems positive.
OW is in a committed relationship with another man at this point which is positive for our sitch. Ex-H doesn't seem freaked out by my invitations and isn't bringing up OW anymore so it's really promising. I just hope and pray we continue down this path...a path to being friends again and making new memories.
I invited ex-H to go to Disneyland for a week this summer and he said he's not quite ready for that yet and just wants a nice relaxing vacation so that is no biggy. I just truely feel like this is the last go of trying to make it work and I wanna throw it all out there. He hasn't said anything negative to anyone about the invite which felt really good...he doesn't seem to be looking at me as a freak...that's a bonus!
It's all positive, no negative, that I know of, so I think I just need to hold tight, be patient and keep doin what I'm doin
