Nothing feels like "home"....

[old theotherhalf]

Thank you so much Peace and I wish the same for you.

"good that you are working through it
no guarantees anywhere, but to maybe enjoy and live for the moment"

That's all I can do peace. I keep trying to let go of the past and appreciate "new" guy for all of his goodness. It just gets hard sometimes, all that I see at times is the bad, or what he's "lacking" (for lack of a better word). That may sound terrible, and it does, but I'm being honest. I also know that some of that comes for missing XH still. Your right though, all we really have is today. I am trying to appreciate that for what it is.

I have learned so much through all of this. New guy doesn't see like I do, or understand my thinking alot of the time. I can't explain it to him. Only someone that has gone through a life long M ending so suddenly in D, or someone that has faced death or imprisonment, would really understand.

I live each day to the fullest. I appreciate each and every second. If I find myself afraid of something, I hold my head up and plow right through it. I don't want to leave this world with any regrets.

blessings,
TOH