No this is great information. I know you've mentioned many of these things in the past and every now and then I need a reminder that I'm not going crazy.
You would think that she would have some kind of emotional reaction to "something". I mean even when I told her about her boss trying to get me fired, there was nothing. I even had to ask her if she was concerned about my job, she said "of course". But there was no reaction when it first happened.
The only reaction I see in her now is sadness. I know it's all about her, but honestly, I don't know how she can still blame it on the M, or more specifically, the feeling that she just doesn't want to be M any more.
Could it be because it would require "effort". Something she hasn't done at all?
Sometimes I wonder what she's thinking about when she's in church. I mean, can she be praying for "her" to heal when she divorces, or is she praying for the strength to divorce?
Ack, now I'm reverting back to trying to figure her out. There are times that when she has our Ds and I call to wish them goodnight, that I don't even want to hear the sound of her voice because all the anger and resentment sneaks up sometimes.
Must stop that.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
