I know you didnt name me to respond, but, Im gonna anyway.
First of all, yep, Bay Ridge, home to Gotti. Second, Nathan's is staying.
I want to tell you that I had a horrific childhood. So, insecurity was my middle name. I had all kinds of other stuff that I brought to the marriage.
Here's the thing. You did the best you could with the tools you had at the time. And beating yourself up for what you contributed to the marriage is serving you no purpose.
And projecting what you think your wife is feeling about you, and what she is feeling about anything, also, not serving any purpose.
Seeing your wife on the phone with OM is gonna hurt. Nothing wrong with feeling how you feel.
But, if you take all this info and use it to propel you forward, well, now you're talkin'.
I stayed stuck for so long blaming myself and trying to figure out what h was thinking that it held me back.
I dont want to see you do that.
You can only be responsible for you, your actions, your feelings. Those are yours and hers are hers, ya know?
So, good for you for getting some action plans.
Stop beating yourself up for the past. It's the past.
Start living your life in the present.
Sometimes, it's better to just live the changes you want to make. Just be the man you want to be, everyday.
Of course, you are going to have down days. You wouldn't be human if you didn't This is tough stuff. It aint for the faint of heart. But, if you walk the journey, boy, what you'll learn, and how you'll grow.
