Journaling: Spoke to the MC today. That was a pleasant conversation. Her advice? Not much really. She suggested that I will know I'm done when I can look back on our relationship and remember the love we once shared. I can see that she is right. Right now I'm questioning all of it and re-remembering much of it. Actually, I'm seeing it differently I think. Kind of like trying on a coat. What I find is that I have an impasse - if I don't see the love, then I picked poorly and I suck. If I did, then it's harder to let go. Hmm.... Just the same, things are progressing. I am in limbo and writing this from the foxhole of limbo land. Actually, things aren't too bad. I remembered the part about the friends former wife and it reminds me of a way to protect myself when she gets crazy(er) than normal. Oddly, and don't shoot me for this, I've noticed that when the phase of the moon changes, so too do her moods. I've noticed for years, but was told I'm nuts. I don't think that's the case any longer. In fact, I don't doubt myself any longer. Not time for that any more. I like me. I like my life. I like the things I'm starting to do. There are many more I hope to do. This is getting kind of fun....
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
