Right now I don't want to talk to him at all. I called to read S6's school assessment to him, in which the teacher wrote that S6 had some of the highest scores that she has ever seen ( ) and to tell him that he has the lead in the little skit they are doing at tomorrow's graduation. I just found out last night and I would be mad if he had known & not told me.
He says someone will have to tape it for him because he has *something going on*. He then launched into a diatribe about how he has to coach the Tball team now because the coach got sick & doesn't want to do it, and how he doesn't have any money for gas because he doesn't have a job (my fault), and how it isn't his fault that he isn't the coach because of the circumstances (also my fault) . I wanted to remind him that he had been the coach but quit at the last minute, that there were a bunch of kids who didn't want to be in the middle of it who just needed SOMEONE to step up, and to get over it already & find a damn job. But I didn't. Instead, he heard...
"I can understand how that would be frustrating."
I also didn't tell him he got a bunch of mail from the college the past week. If he's looking into going back, then he knows it's coming & will arrange to get it--if it's that important to him. If he's not going back, then it's not that important & he will get it when he thinks to pick up his stuff. Right?
S6 talked to him when I was done, he chatted for a bit & then said, "Please come to my graduation?". No prompting from me. It made me tear up.
He said, "Daddy said, 'Maybe' & then he had to go. He might come mom!"
That poor kid. And just like *that* I go back to hating him for what he's doing to them.
I really hate this rollercoaster.
formerly known as "shelbel" Me 40, stbxh 40 DSs 9, 7 & 3 M9, T10 Stbxh is a diagnosed bipolar & an addict. The end.
