I'm sorry if I'm not as strong as you guys. to be honest I'm thinking about telling s3's mom to not let me see him anymore. I don't deserve to have a family anymore I guess.
I've failed and they are better off without me.
What am I trying for? More pain? More hurt? More disappointments? More hoping shyt is going to go right then have it tumble down? There is never a consistent positive thing going on anymore for me.
not one. Nothing to buidl upon. So what is the damn point? God should just put me out of my misery and end it. I'm tired of struggling suffering being hurt getting my hopes up and having them shot down. It's pointless and endless and no matter what solution I try. No matter what I try to do. NOTHING CHANGES.
This is pure fuccing hell. I can't stand it. I'd rather be dead than live another day like this.
We all have to learn the big lesson. You have been here long enough to have learned it already. Everyone in their own time though, I understand.
So, here is the lesson: you and only you are responsible for your happiness!
Yes, people hurt us, disappoint us and let us down. It happens to everyone. We hurt, cry, get depressed and get over it. Do you like being miserable? I'm sure you don't. You have to want to get better.
