Excuse me??? Sandi and Greek have responded to you, and they are two of the VERY BEST VETS WE HAVE. Reconciled just took the time to write out a VERY detailed post for you. Have you even taken the time to respond to what they've all posted to you?
I'm sorry, that's just rude. I know you're hurting, m/i, and panicked, but "panic" isn't a plan. You need to take a breath, and get to work.