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[awest1217]

Thanks! I really do feel like I can do anything. I am completely changing my house's exterior and it looks great! Everyday when I leave or come home and see it, I am just so proud of myself for making the change, and later this summer I am going to paint S's room so it is blue with moon and stars. At the end of the summer, I am hoping to buy some slip covers for the hand-me-down couches I have so everything looks uniform, and then honestly, I will be happy with the house. I will then start saving for big things next year like new appliances since mine are going haywire or siding for the house since I have wood siding or new windows...all probably too expensive right now, but who knows in a few years. A little at a time.

With H's friend, they aren't really "friends" now. They worked together for two summers when they were both in college. She started working in my corporation 4 years ago, but she worked at the junior high. Now she is moving to the high school. Her and H don't talk or really haven't talked since working together, but I still wonder what she knows about H or what their relationship really was like...I will have to work on not worrying about that before next year, but also having to answer questions like "how are H and I doing?" Since they don't talk, all things I haven't had to deal with in a while and would like to keep it that way.

I don't know if I will bring up the e-mail to H. He is one that doesn't like to be told things over and over again. He knows what I said to him and he knows that I am looking for actions and for a response. He could be working on writing a response, but I am not going to push anything. My only problem right now is this weekend my brother and sister-in-law are in town from TN. They are the ones who have a problem with me and H. I don't want to have issues with them. they are also the ones who pulled my name for christmas and never bought me anything. Also a family friend (one of my grandma's friends) is in town. She is annoying and doesn't know about H and I because she will ask way too many questions that are none of her business since she is really not family so I will have to figure out how to deal with that as well. I was going to have H come to my grandma's because she invited him and then I wouldn't have to deal with the family friend, but with the animosity with my immediate family and the fact he has ignored my e-mail, I don't think I will bring it up.

Right now I am honestly going really well considering it has been one year since H moved out. I wish it were a little cooler so that S and I could play outside without sweating a ton, but it is supposed to cool off tomorrow so we can enjoy the weather as we start our summer together.