Yeah, it 's SUPER weird. He says that he agrees that it's inappropriate to still call her that name (since it's his grandpa's name) but he might as a personal nickname, I guess. It's very close to the name that I have now, though, so it might just be weird. (Aw, heck. We talked about naming her Ray. And now my nickname for her is Vay.)

Overall, I'm irritated by the email. He sounds so confident and happy that I'm "okay" with everything. And so happy that the baby has been unaffected-- that was because of ME. I almost want to write back to say that. I don't want him to think that there is no consequence for this action of his. There may be. I am just working to make it as smooth as possible.

The only reason I'd want to see him is so that he can see the belly, feel her move, stuff like that. But I don't even know how I would act. I can't keep up the friendliness, I don't think, that I can do over email. In person, I will probably be un-smiley, and possibly even impatient and rude. I wouldn't want the meeting to last more than 15 minutes. I mean, what do we have to say?

So still thinking. We'll see.

me, 30
WH, 29
D born June 2010
M: July 2001
Bomb/S: 1/14/10
Done with it all.