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If you were around since his birth that means you experienced this 137 times a day.

sometimes i feel like i hear it 200 times a day. i've never heard anyone dote on their grown child to the point where it's like sucking up. it's not genuine.

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What are your solutions? Right now you aren't acting like you want to stay married. Goals that follow your beliefs and values are key to staying focused on what you should be doing. You can handle it.

my goals were to take up tennis and enroll in a baking course.
check - on the baking course.
no check - on the tennis yet. i need to watch my spending.
need to stay more consistent on the yoga and weight training.
i actually stopped by the new homes sales office and inquired about purchasing a home. i was advised to wait for the next phase coming out next month. i already know what i want.

prior to meeting h, my life revolved around work.
i worked long hours, fit in squash, weight training, and yoga.
and all i ever wanted was my own place.

other than that, i need to work on a will and make sure my nieces and nephews are looked after if anything happens to me.

my only regret is that i "gave" myself to my h. i wish i could take that back. i feel used. and it's hard for me to get over it. i don't feel right anymore.

what else do i have to do?

i am discouraged because db-ing is about saving yourself. if you save your marriage, then that's a bonus. if you don't, well tough cookie you'll move on to someone else.

my beliefs and morals doesn't agree with that. it's not my part of my belief system that i move on to someone else.