What if for now I just move my money? He will still access to joint billing but I dont know if emotionally I am able to do both things right now. I understand what everyone is saying and agree that you are right but I dont think I can handle it.

This could be a start? So...back to the original?

Good morning WAH, I have decided to deposit my paycheck into a separate account. I will have $xxxx transfer every two weeks into the joint account to cover joint bills. Thanks for understanding.
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