I could care less about her. I just want her to be gone and have my own life with my goals that do not include her. She is so not worth the paper our marriage is written on.
It's very sad to finally come to this realization, but necessary. You are in the frame of mind that you need to be to protect yourself and your kids.
I hate to read how she treating you. There is just no excuse for it and you don't deserve it.
Hold your head high and do what you need to do. No regrets, no fear. Just do it! You are the better person.
Kids were sick, and I had to stay home from work today because daycare provider would not take the kids because they were sick, and he has his own kids. I understood.
I did look for funding for my D, and it is hard to come by. I am looking at my options. They seem very few and time is getting closer to me having to respond. I have to do something soon. I just hate this more and more. I like her less and less more everyday and that is being polite. I really hate her. I could never and would never want to be married to her anymore.
Now she is coming home early which I hate more, and I wish she would just stay away. She is doing whatever she can to make my life miserable. I have to find the money for the attorney I have found. I just need to sell some prints my mom has and find a loan for the rest. It is so difficult.
I need a job, and I need another place to live. I have to do all this in the next three weeks with nothing. Lucky me. I may find myself homeless. Yes, it is that bad if not worse because I have nowhere to put my stuff.
My kids will be lost. She will have them. Her mother will be here then for 3 months, and then the kids will brainwashed.
I guess I will hit rock bottom someday. I don't know how my life will get any worse then that, but I am sure it can.
At least I would be away from her. Maybe I could finally have some rest. I need and want sleep so bad. I would like to sleep for 24 hours straight with no interruptions. It just sounds so nice. Simple sleep makes me happy!
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LSG, there were times I was sure that I wanted out of my marriage faster than my W, and then reality hits. Once kids are around, there is no clean exit. It forced me to make sure anger wasn't the emotion running me.
I'm not saying that anger is your key emotion now, just take a look in the rear view and make sure. She deserves punishment, but in the end, you both need to have happiness to pass on to your kids, regardless of the marriage.
Anger is in me, but I not express it, so I am in control of my emotions in that respect.
We do need happiness to pass on to our kids, but she has taken so much away from them by her actions. She deserves to suffer the way she has her own family. I hope she feels a little bit of the pain the kids and I will go through for years to come.
It is very sad to me!!! It did not have to be this way!
Thanks for trying to keep me seeing other perspectives. I appreciate that very much.
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I just took a little drive and screamed and cried a little because I just don't have the resources to fight for my kids. I am becoming so worried that I will not have the $5000 for my attornies to have the motions put in place to stop her from her sneaky games. I am so close to losing more. I need a job too.
I just do not know what to do to achieve those goals and why it is so hard for me.
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Do you have a home equity line of credit? Credit card?
Let the L know your situation. You are not the first person in this position. Keep asking until you find a solution that is Ok with you.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
Talk to your attny and let him/her know of the financial hardships you are experiencing for legal counsel. Not sure about CA but in NY the attny can petition the courts on your behalf to have your W pay for your legal fees right now.
Talk to your attny and find out what your options are.
There is some legal aid, but the attorney I contacted told me I need so much more than is provided by legal aid. I am going to try an attorney to help me with the paper work on Thursday for $20 and some other fees to at least keep the kids to have custody with me if something happens to her. I will have visitation, but no place for them to visit.
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We rent, and I have nothing to use. My parents are trying to sell some prints, but we are finding it difficult to find a buy in a short time. I tried a legal loan company, but they have not returned my calls, and the money is expensive, and I could not afford the payments.
I have told the attorney the situation, but he said I need to have the retainer and he could help me. This what all the attornies have told me.
I know I have to stay positive and pray. It is all I can do. I will not give up, but I am worried.
I will be okay, but it will hurt me if I lose my "shining stars." They mean so much to me.
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