Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

Hi DLS,

It has been a terrible day.

Kids were sick, and I had to stay home from work today because daycare provider would not take the kids because they were sick, and he has his own kids. I understood.

I did look for funding for my D, and it is hard to come by. I am looking at my options. They seem very few and time is getting closer to me having to respond. I have to do something soon. I just hate this more and more. I like her less and less more everyday and that is being polite. I really hate her. I could never and would never want to be married to her anymore.

Now she is coming home early which I hate more, and I wish she would just stay away. She is doing whatever she can to make my life miserable. I have to find the money for the attorney I have found. I just need to sell some prints my mom has and find a loan for the rest. It is so difficult.

I need a job, and I need another place to live. I have to do all this in the next three weeks with nothing. Lucky me. I may find myself homeless. Yes, it is that bad if not worse because I have nowhere to put my stuff.

My kids will be lost. She will have them. Her mother will be here then for 3 months, and then the kids will brainwashed.

I guess I will hit rock bottom someday. I don't know how my life will get any worse then that, but I am sure it can.

At least I would be away from her. Maybe I could finally have some rest. I need and want sleep so bad. I would like to sleep for 24 hours straight with no interruptions. It just sounds so nice. Simple sleep makes me happy!