You know, this journey, the reason we are all here--it's not "fun", it's definitely got a lot of twists and turns we didn't ask for.
But when I think about my son, and all I have learned here--I *know* I have been a better mom, and I BET you--I KNOW that you have been a wonderful dad.
There is a profound sense of "what is important" in us that our WAS's may or may not have--but we DO have it.
I don't know if I would have been able to focus so clearly on him if it hadn't gone the way it has--I used to worry about a dirty house, or friends, or ....so many other things took my attention away.
This sitch has given me such a clear head that THAT STUFF means NOTHING. When I am with my S, I am WITH him in the present. And I know his LLs.lol. That is certainly a gift.
I've been doing this 6 years off and on. I could get really bitter about that. But I look at my now 14 yo S who just got an award for his grades (4.0 the entire year) and some special recognition for some plays he was in. I have focused on him for the last 6 years, and I don't regret anything in my sitch--nothing. I almost had ADHD with him before--the other stuff was SO distracting.
Your outing with your daughter--wow--so special. Such a treat. But even in the littel things you do, you are different now.
