What you just posted is something that happened last year. Yes, I did say I wanted to leave. Yes, I went out looking for apartments/houses. Why? Because of this same damn issue - he didn't get his way and he threatened me with divorce. I get really, really, really, REALLY tired of being threatened with divorce CONSTANTLY. How are we ever supposed to work on anything if I can't talk to him without being threatened?
I have never threatened him with anything. My thing is I just cannot be physically intimate with him because I feel as though I've been beaten down to a pulp by his threats - and they are constant, I am not exaggerating.
Now, I am calm. I would like to participate and get helpful advice, tips, hints, etc., provided LongShanks doesn't rear his ugly head again.
I am reading the Divorce Remedy and got through Chapter 6 last night. I am implementing the "last resort" because there is no way in hell that I can talk to him or email him or anything, He is dead set on hating me, divorcing me, getting a lawyer who will "slit my throat and leave me bleeding and gasping for air". I almost wish he would just come over and cut my throat and let me die - literally. I am having a really hard time with this.
Meanwhile, when I check his emails, he is just having the time of his life. He's out golfing with his buds, having a blast, and he has something going on this coming Sunday, but I don't know what it is yet. I'm sure he will reveal it to somebody in an email.
Okay, right now I am angry. Earlier I was weepy and an emotional, puffy-faced wreck. I'm sure that's going to happen again in the next hour or so.
I need some direction because everything just seems so hopeless right now. I don't understand why our relationship has to be like this! We actually used to be madly in love with each other. Now ... I don't even want to wake up tomorrow morning - or ever. It just sucks. Not that he'd care - he'd probably celebrate and go on with his golf game, and that hurts.
