She does what she does with you and to you because it's "safe". It's obvious she's still addicted to the OM. Think about it in terms of an alcoholic, when confronted by others about their problem, they'll swear they've changed, make grand gestures and "show" that they've changed. But under the covers you'll find a bottle hidden.
That's how she's acting right now. While they are good, they aren't anything until she actually APOLOGIZES to you. She hasn't shown remorse so it will come up again. That's almost a guarantee from what I've seen on the boards.
Right now you're the back-up plan. If something or someone else comes along, in her state of mind right now, you're going to get dropped and left holding the bag again.
Be cautious and act like YOUR life is good. That YOU could live with or without her. That YOU would like her in your life and activities, but if she chooses not to, it's no big deal.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
