Cause for alarm?

[OfficerInNeed]

OK here it goes....

This morning I spoke with OMW just to make sure we are on the same page. OMW asked me if my W said anything to me about a supervisor talking to her about the situation. I told OMW that W has not said anything to me.

According to OMW a sup. is going to talk to my W. This sup told OMW that she can guarantee that my W will not talk to OM anymore, that is if she wants to keep her job. I asked what about OM going up to my W? OMW said that OM will just make himself look like a damn fool and he will then get disciplined.

Also acording to OMW my W is telling female frined from work that OMW is talking about her. Now female friend from work and OMW get along also female friend from work and OM best friend are involved. SO now this is causing issues between them two. They all now think my W is doing this on purpose to make them all miserable like her.

There is a little more that OMW said but I want to get into our day.
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W and I were getting ready to head out. W went into the bathroom to try on a pair of pants. The door opened so I thought that it was cool for me to get in there now and that she was coming out. As I walked into the bathroom W was actually in the middle of changing pants and she closed the door in my face. I nearly said something but walked away, upset but I walked outside in the backyard to cool off.

After a few min I went back into the house, W was done in the bathroom and so I headed in. W was down stairs and yelled up

- "When you come down can you grab the ring and bring it with you"

- I said "Sure what ring you want? the heart shaped ruby one?"

- W said "Does not matter, anyone"

I instantly thought to myself if I should bring the wedding ring down to her.

Now, the wedding rings have sat in a cup in the bathroom for months now, so I eventually moved them into a box and put them in her bottom drawer, I don't think she knows they are there. My W has been wearing this ruby ring she bought herself a couple months back on her ring finger, only in the past few days has she not worn it at all.

I decided not to take the wedding ring to her and just brought down the ruby ring.

We eventually left and headed for the zoo. We had a pretty good time there. There were times where I had the urge to hold her hand or say a few things that may be considered pursuit but I held back. There were times where W seemed distant but I did not let it spoil our time. W actually fooled with me a little bit. She has a water bottle that also had a mist spray on it, and she jokingly sprayed me in the face a few times (for which it is intended and feels good in the hot sun). We had a good time and eventually left and decided to get something to eat.

We first went and visited my grandfather's burial site then went and got our food, on the way home stopped at a store.

While driving a song came on the radio and W looked like she was in a daze, my only thought was "she is thinking about OM" so I turned the station.

W talked about purchasing something and I told her to go ahead and do so. W said "no that is bike money" My W has wanted to get a bike for a little bit now. W swung by a bank cashed her check and went to a couple stores to look at bikes. W found the bike she wanted and asked if I was going to get one too. W ended up buying us both a bike so we could go bike riding....

Some where between store to store W talked about us buying a boat and spoke a lot of future tense words. W said she wanted to get her motorcycle permit and I told her that is something I would be interested in as well, W then said "Me and you can barrow my fathers bikes and go riding"

We got home, unloaded the bikes and went for a bike ride. We ended up at a park where we, like little kids, went on the swings. W started to talk to me about how her father use to take her to the park and go on the swings (I took her to the same park when we first started to date and pushed her on the same swings as her father did).

W talked about trips to Florida and the amusement parks (where we went on our honeymoon btw). W said "When we go back we are going to epcot and going on that ride" What she meant was on our honeymoon we waited 45 min in line for a ride that I chickened out on just before getting on and we left. Later that night I said "I wantto go on that ride" W was so upset. I said to W "if we ever went back you have more word, we will go on that ride" Then W started to talk about going to the grand canyon with her father when he goes but did not use "WE" but "I" and I said nothing about it.

We then road our bikes back home. We were out in the backyard. My nephew was back there and I asked him a question and he said "hmmm" in response. I said to my W "does that not bother you?" W shakes her head yes, then I said "The majority of the time I ask you a question or say something to you, I get the same response" W said "Do I do that?
and I said "yes"

W were walking in the house and I said something to my W and she said "hmmm" then I said "Are you being serious?" W said "What?" I said "I take that as disrespect" W then replied "Its not disrespect, you just need to speak up"...I admit ever since our sitch began i became more soft spoken but at the same time W does this even when she does hear me but I just left it at that.

We sat down and ate watched a little TV and here I am.

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Today was OK. Sometimes I feel so tempted to say or do something that might be too much too soon.

W still very "shy" around me or maybe just does not want me to see her anything other than fully cloth. This does bother me as I feel we'll never be intimate again. I don't expect for it to happen over night and I do understand that I have many other hurdles to jump before we reach that one.

W did give me the "hmm" "ummm hmmm"'s today but not as many as usual

There were times where I actually touched W hand , because there was a indent of some sort, so I asked what it was as I touched it and she allowed the touch not pulling away like she usually would or had in the past.

Also I gave W compliments about what she was wearing looking great....I really want to let her know how beautiful I think she is without pursuing.
I am sure I am leaving some things out but that is the bulk of it.