HUGS....Everything will be OK. I suggest focusing on right now...that helps me.
As far as the money, one question to ask yourself:
"Am I enabling irresponsible behavior?" ...Is the $60 making it so bills are not getting paid? Can YOU spend $60 on a massage and still cover the bills?
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712