feel like giving up - pt 2

[LSG]

luv,

I know the feeling of being tired. It just drains your energy to be in this situation.

I hope the paperwork is going okay for you. It is a daunting task also because it is emotional, but you will be okay.

It must have been nice to enjoy that bottle of wine because he wanted!

Have a really nice day and take care of yourself always.

[luvless]

Hi guys,

I just signed my first legal doc of many to come. The temporary orders for support are drawn up for 30 days. I hate the numbers. I wonder if I'll even have money left over for the market after paying the bills.

My soon to be X is really being disgusting. I can't believe how he has abandoned me after all these years. I guess I'm not shocked but it sure is sad

I'm searching way down deep for patience. God help me.

Luv

[flowmom]

(((Luv))) that is so stressful. Take care...

[luvless]

Thanks Flow & LSG

I'm having an ok day. I spent the morning at my moms. She is terrible - she was playing oldies for me - you know those ones that no one with a broken heart should ever listen to? lol My mom is an awesome mom. She feels so bad for me and tells me she wish she could take away my broken heart dude! I wanna cry when she says that to me. She gave me a facial and cut my hair - she's the best.

Mom is so upset with Mr. Luv. She sent him a long text telling him that she was so disappointed he abandoned his wife and kids. He did not respond of course. Anyway...I'm gonna make a nice dinner for the kids and go for a swim later. It is a beautiful day today.

My sister asked me yesterday if I missed my husband....I said not the person he's become.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend. We all deserve it so much!

Luv

[TimeHeals]

I am having a relaxing weekend. That is what passes for a great weekend--by way of comparrison--these days.

Thanks for the good wishes.

Slowly but surely we all emerge from this stronger if that is what we want.

[luvless]

good morning..

Gno - for you

I'm having a friend over for breakfast pretty soon - with a little champagne

swimming

and...a friend for dinner

house is clean and kids fed....time for me.

Luv

[Gardener]

luv,

My sister asked me yesterday if I missed my husband....I said not the person he's become.

Ain't that the truth! For all of us.
And, are you ever blessed to have such a mom!

[luvless]

Thanks Gardener - it's true though huh? What happened to my kids dad and the husband I knew. (insert confused face here)

I actually had a lot of anxiety yesterday afternoon. I started feeling really sad. I sucked it up but it was upsetting.

Today I feel ok. I've had a busy day outside of the house that's probably why. I guess I will do even better once I get a job. It will be nice to socialize with other adults...being a stay at home mom...it gets rough sometimes. I won't ever regret it though.

Thanks to all of you for your continued support.

Luv

[Serenity13]

(((((Luv)))))

You know where I am if you need anything my friend!

[luvless]

Thank you Serenity...means much to me!

Well I got my first temporary alimony/child support check deposited today. It figures it wasn't the whole amount. There is a little missing but we'll see whats going on there.

I'm gonna vent here for a minute. I was having an ok day then my daughter came home from school with a frown on her face. I said what's wrong? She says, "nothing" but my older son says, "she's upset cuz dad didn't say I love you back to her."

Yesterday she talked to him asking him for money (for prom and end of year stuff) and he was short with her. I was right next to her there was no reason - she wasn't being a brat just asking for him to deposit something. He said "he'd look into it." She said, "no dad prom is saturday I need money now" He got upset with her and said she was being disrespectful. She kept saying it's not fair you spent $500 for older son's prom and why are you being this way with me? anyway...she ended the conversation by saying "I love you" and he did not respond.

Today evidently she said "ILY" at the end of the conversation and he replies "ok." I think that's really sh*tty man. He knows how sensitive she is. She takes that stuff to heart. She feels her dad (who is her freaking hero) doesn't care about her! What the heck? I had a sad cry after the kids left but had to hurry up and cut it short cuz the younger one was coming home shortly.

This is hell. My older son says to me...(after hearing a woman talking in the backround when daughter was on phone with dad)

S - mom I don't get it
M - what?
S - the women of today
M - oh you mean women who go after married men?
S - yeah, it's sick
M - it is...really
S - I'm writing my sociology paper on divorce
M - well what I don't get is why these homewreckers don't understand they're only getting H A L F.

Ok..that's a long enough post huh? lol jeez people I've had such a rollercoaster of emotions these last two days!

Luv....