Yes, the more I think about it the more that was an open door for me to say something, but for a change I think I did well!! When she called, I wanted to ask but my gut told me not to say a word.
I also wonder if ow put her up to calling me wanting to see if I would say anything about timeshare or about the baby. See, ow doesn't know for sure that I know about the baby. I don't respond to the emails she sends so she doesn't know if I'm getting them or not & with me not saying anything she still doesn't know.
I'm a little surprised that sil didn't tell me about the baby, so that is a little suspicious to me.
Well, nothing new on my end! While I was trimming the bushes in front of my house on Saturday, I accidentally cut the TV Cable, oops! I hated that so bad!!!! So, I've been without a TV since Saturday, but I've made it. I watched some stuff that I had taped or a DVD. Anyway, the cable guy came today & fixed it, I told him that I had done it & asked how much it would cost. He told me that he wasn't going to report that I did it, that he would code it a different way, that way I wouldn't get charge! There are still some very nice people in this world!!! He also told me that my gutters were stopped up & wanted me to see, so he held the ladder for me to look at it, it's terrible! My parents are coming this weekend & will help me clean them out. Just something else to have to keep up with when owning a house by yourself! Little things like that I left it up to my h, I would help mow the yard & work in the flowers & the garden but some of this other stuff I never thought about it. I don't remember him cleaning them out on the front of the house, but I would see him do it on the back & I've done that but the front is harder to get to b/c of the bushes. Oh well, it will get done!
Like I said nothing to report right now, but I said I would try to get on here more often. You all have been there for me when I needed you most & now I want to be here for others!
My cousin told me today that her mother gave her a card when she divorce & it said:
"No matter what is taken away from you, if you keep your eyes on Jesus and praise Him, He will restore it to you. You will be joyful to the exact same degree you have hurt. What you have lost will be replaced...joy for mourning...beauty for ashes..."
We should all be some happy people one of these days!!!
Cable wire incident sounds like something that would happen to me! Gutters...yuck!
Had to go get some redi-mix stuff for weedeater gas today...went to the autoparts store...H FINALLY called back whiel we were there and directed us to the hardware store, then...I get home and looked where he said he thought he had some and THERE were 5 bottles of the stuff! So...we finally get it going and the string ran out...sigh...I don't know how to re-string it so hopefully when H comes tomorrow he will do that for us! Man!
I like what your cousin's Mom wrote in her card. Have been reading some things on the power of positive thinking and patience...
Enjoy watching your tv tonight!
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Yes, I'm excited about watching TV tonight! I'm so glad I was only out for a couple of days, but when you are by yourself, that seems like forever!!
Check out battery operated weed eaters, they have this thing that you can just change out the string, all you have to do is pop it on. Works great! No re-stringing! It's perfect for a woman!
Yes, I agree! I need to be a more positive thinker & be more patient. I guess since it's been 2 years since my D was final my patience are becoming weaker. Got to get that back!
Ladies, You can either go on line and search for your string trimmer and get instructions there; or you can ask at the store. People are generally very helpful in showing you how to restring them. Depending upon the type you have, they are generally very easy to restring.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Yes, check out those battery operated weed eaters, they work great! I didn't know re-stringing was so easy, I knew my h used to have trouble with the one he had but it used gas & was heavy.
Am I standing??? That is a good question, yes I have been for a long time now & part of me still feels like he will be back & if you had asked me a year or even 6 months ago if I would have taken him back, the answer would have been yes, it would have been really hard work but yes I would have. Now, since they have adopted this baby, I just don't know! Not that I don't love kids & I would love to have a girl but that would mean he would have to be in contact with this ow all the time b/c of the kid, this woman is crazy! I don't say that lightly either, she really has some mental problems. So my answer is, I really don't know right now. I want to keep standing but I'm not sure I should. Whew, typing that just now was pretty hard!
You know today I was dusting, I have a little photo library that has about 4 different books to it. I set them up for our dogs, 2 which have died now but each book was dedicated to all photos taken of one dog, of course our pictures were in there also. When I saw my ex's picture, in the past it has upset me but today #1, I could see how happy he looked, his eyes, his face, just total contentment, in the pictures I've seen of him since he has been with ow, that is not there, very empty, sad looking, & #2, I missed him but I wasn't sad, as if I'm going to see him again. I don't know, it was just a weird thing today. Maybe I'm trying to read stuff in there that is not & I'm trying to act as if he is not coming back, but I guess a part of me still wishes he would... but I also want the man in those pictures back & I'm not sure he is or will ever be that man again. That is scary!
Thanks for asking, I guess it made me really think about it!
As for what you see in your H's eyes...we had a family picture taken a couple of years ago and my H looked very happy! He was smiling and had his arm around me (he doesn't smile often in pics) and then I found that "must have missed it, left behind pic in my truck of him and OW) and I thought he looked really happy...HB said it was because I was too close to the sitch and would not be able to read his eyes.
I know that you have been divorced bor 2 yrs now but you are obviously detached and are able to "see" that your H is not happy. Unfortunately, he may live the rest of his life that way but by his choice!
You will know when it is time to move on! You are doing awesome and am glad you came back to DB to offer your support!
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No, you didn't open up any old wounds. I think about ex everyday, I can't help it I guess. Of course I'm in the same house we bought together, all the remodeling he did & just everything.
Just to make sure on the pictures, I sent a family picture we had with our dogs & then another picture of him & ow to someone who doesn't know us very well & they said the same thing, he was happy with me & stressed with her (that was 2 years ago) & the latest picture I saw of him, he looks even more unhappy now than he did in that other one. A friend of mine made the same comment to me when I showed her the last picture.
It's still early in your sitch & you may not be able to see as well, but again it's also early in the r with ow. Give it a little time & I have a strong feeling that look will change!
Thank you for saying I'm doing well, somedays I really don't think I am but compared to the way I was 2 years ago I guess I'm all right.
Believe me, I want to support others in this sitch b/c everyone was here for me!
