I do know what you were going through on Friday. I have all of the feelings you have. I just want my H to come home and tell me he loves me and wants our family back so bad.
I just don't know what to do....my H isn't with OW yet. But it is his parents that are telling him to D me already. I know I wrote about the in-laws but how the heck do I get a man that was always afraid of his F to just come home. I found out over the weekend that mine does think of coming home and wants us but is too afraid of what his parents would do. So he has a lot of confusion going on in his head. Talk about messed up. He doesn't even contact me or anything, but loves me and the kids all of this is so confusing.
But anyway, how do you fight for your M when the S is afraid of what everyone will think and what their parents will do? Has anyone ever heard of this before? It's usually an OP involved not parents, especially at our age.
I pray and pray every day and night. I found rejoiceministries through this website and get the daily devotionals and thought maybe God was telling me to stand for this M. I was always praying don't get me wrong, but being so lonely I almost went out on a date and everything until I found the site.
I was also told that I'm not strong enough yet to have H come back because he is very needy and always was, and also that he is in such a bad state and I have to be strong because of all the baggage he will be bringing home with him as far as his family goes.
So like this site tells you to do....go dark, no pursuing, etc and so does the rejoiceministries site and far as no pursing, I will continue to stay dark and fake it till I make it.
Just hope that I can last, I have to get strong in order for H to come home. I started on Saturday with cleaning out the closets in our bedroom, I need to do the whole house. I have put so much off the past 18 months because of being so depressed and I know I have to get my act together.
To be honest, I know I will probably be down and out tonight. This really stinks.
