Well, you are definitely on the up and down--here's to you staying more on the up!
It is a wild and rocky journey. I, too, have friends who saved me from cutting open whatever artery would do the trick. As I say to them now: "I'm still not sure I appreciate it! but thank you, anyhow."
I am so impressed with you being an ER doc. I do volunteer EMS in my little town,and it is very satisfying as well as very scary.
Your strength in being able to bear with OW in the hospital is amazing. Keep it up.
And keep up the contacts with new possible girlfriends. Just let yourself enjoy having laughter, some tingles, some thoughts of joy and fun. More will come with time.
Keep up the good work. I didn't get a story about a man in a kilt, though--even though men are not your cuppa--what about many of the rest of us??!