Don't get me wrong, I felt like you did in the beginning, I think we all go through that, that is fear of loss, that is crisis, "what if...", it's ok to feel what you're feeling - heck those feelings are your's, you own them, but you need to realize why you feel this way. You're afraid of something that hasn't happened yet, in essence, you're afraid of what tomorrow may bring and my advice would be to turn that into your 180, look forward to what tomorrow may bring, you may be surprised at the good things that may come your way still.
Every day is a chance to do better than the previous, even if it's only in a small way, over time, even the tiniest of changes add up to something significant in size.
You focus on having a great day today and an awesome weekend
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
