Hi Hockeymom, I'm right there sitting in that boat with you. I completely understand what you're saying and I too am having a tough time envisioning how everything I'm doing could possibly result in a shift in our M. What I am trying to keep in mind is that I'm making the changes I'm making for me and for my kids. Regardless of what happens with my marriage - I need to grow in this way. That said - there is nothing wrong with being sad - the situation we find ourselves in IS sad. The key is to realize that emotions come and go - they change - they constantly change. Sadness and loneliness always feels like it's going to last forever but it doesn't. Try your best to just watch it but not be consumed by it. Do whatever you can to remind yourself of what I'm going to call core truths - Here's a a link to a great video that makes me weep but also rings true inside and somehow makes me have faith in the wisdom of whatever is true in this moment even if it doesn't feel good:
