HB-I know you have been in the same place I am...I have just reached the point where I'm not sure I love him anymore...at least the man he is now. This is my 2nd M. My first H had his own crisis and married the OW. Years later when I met my H, I was still somewhat devasted with a lot of trust issues. He was so good to me and would have done anything to make me happy. The man he is now, doesn't (or can't) give a crap about anyone but himself. I feel bad that he is in the place he is in but he makes me feel used and taken advantage of. I don't like myself for continually tolerating the lack of caring and disrespect. And I am tired of the proverbial carrot being dangled. Right now without my H, I feel I have lost nothing and I have gained some control of my life...and found some of my self-respect in the process. I don't regret trying to DB my marriage because I learned about myself and relationships in this process. It is just time for me to let go and live my life as if I not waiting for someone to catch up with me. I have no idea what the future has in store and I will try to never say never, but I know need to live my life for me now. And I hope and pray that my H finds whatever it is that will make him happy.
peace-Yes, the twists and turns and ups and downs have been intense. I have my doubts that there won't be more up ahead but for now I am at peace and feel good about moving forward. I cried at first but now it just feels right. I won't rule out anything for the future however, I don't think I could be as tolerant of my H's selfish behavior again and I just don't see him moving that far forward anytime soon. How are you and your kids? Anything new?
glam-I have not had any communication with my H since last Tuesday or Wednesday? He was supposed to get me paperwork on Friday since I am going to be the plantiff but of course I have heard nothing. He was also supposed to come and get his things this weekend and didn't. Shocker! He continues to avoid hoping everything will just go away. Looks like I am going to have to force the issue. What's going on with you?
