No I'm not sick any more, and PMA is much better as a result.
And yes, it does make things easier to have a "normal" vibe with H.
I've thought about it a lot. My goal is to have a friendship with H, not just barely civil coparenting interactions. So my interactions with him are based on creating a comfort zone for both of us that will eventually allow for that. If H and I can be friends, I feel that that will minimize the trauma for my children, and make the frequent contact with him more tolerable. I believe that I have to capacity to eventually forgive and overcome my sense of betrayal about what he's done to our family.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.