Last night went as I expected it to.

We made dinner, talked, laughed, hung out, watched LOST, We had sex.... We had a lot of fun together.

LOST sucked, btw.


Went to sleep and I had a dream that she was marrying someone else. I woke up so upset. It was surreal. It was like that dream was a total nightmare, and then I woke up to brief happiness seeing her there, and then total sadness realizing that dream wasn't too far off from reality.

I drove her to the train station... We made out in the car for a minute and she left.

I'm back at work...

I knew I was going to feel like this today, but holy hell, I am so torn up inside.

It took everything I had to not start a R talk. I didn't. I was cool.

I honestly have no idea what shes thinking, or what she wants.

Ugh.

I feel just awful today.