Thanks, everyone, for your continued support and allowing me to vent and get out my frustrations.
Interesting weekend:
W asked me Sat. why I said anything to her family. I had no reason to bring them in to this. I said I was simply setting the record straight, I didn't want a D but wasn't going to stop you from leaving. Anyway, long story short, she agreed to go to counseling. She brought it up, asked if I had anyone in mind and to schedule something. Then she said she didn't think I would do it because I "changed my mind" about separating. She asked me if I trusted her and I said no, you have not given me a reason to in months. Did I think she had slept with the super. I said, at this point, I'm not sure, but it didn't really matter. The relationship is wrong, period. I don't trust her right now, I don't believe her when she says they are just friends and, yes, I wonder if she is telling me the truth about anything.
So, the bottom line is, she reluctantly agreed to counseling. She doesn't sound like she has a very open mind about it, but I guess that's normal? I will make the appointment and pray that she goes and her mind and heart are opened up. I'm sure I will learn some things about myself, too.
I know this is just a step and I am far from out of the woods. If anyone can let me know what I may expect from here would be appreciated. I assume it will still be a good while before she warms up to me or relaxes. Things are still pretty tense. I'm okay with that, I don't expect it to change overnight. Patience, right?
