(((Serenity))) My heart beaks for both your little men.
But they've got one hell of a mother. So they will be alright. You are and will continue to be alright. Eventually this will all be a dim, distant memory.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac