Thank you all for the words of encouragement. This is such shaky ground we are walking on but I am truly starting to see that it is worth it.
I didn't bring up the subject at all last night. He came home right as I was finishing dinner and I was getting ready to leave for grocery shopping after that. He didn't say anything to me but he was still very depressed looking and not saying more than 2 words even to Marc. I left for the store, told him goodbye and when I came back from the first two stores his car was gone. Yes, I started assuming that he was running. I'll admit it. My brain went to the darkest place and right then and there I determined that if he was going to run because I had emotions then he could just keep going. I can't live a dead, emotionless life and that includes being upset or happy! Good realization! When I got home from the 3rd store (yes people, I sometimes grocery shop in 3 different places in town to get a deal) he was back and sitting at the computer. He asked me a question about something he was reading and I walked over next to him. He reached out, pulled me toward him and hugged me super hard. He said he was sorry for the morning and I said I was sorry that what I said upset him. I didn't apologize for my feelings though. We talked a little about how we both perceive things that aren't necessarily true and that it's important to speak up. I actually told him, flat out, that I'm not a mind reader and I don't expect him to be either so please tell me when he's upset with something I do or say or if something makes him happy.
One step at a time. Painful.....but worth it.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
