I just can't take it anymore

[james217]

If God wanted you dead, you'd be in the ground right now. He obviously doesn't.

Who knows why? Maybe its because years from now he wants you to have credibility when you run into another james217 at the end of his rope. So you can tell him about the day you ran out of hope, and yet found enough strength to turn to God and ask him to get you through another day.

When you start making it about others and stop making it about yourself, you may see some benefits. God has a plan for you, and it is not to have you sitting around saying "Why me?"

I have made it about others. That's probably why I'm in this position in the first place. Always trying to help anyone I could. Sacrificing. Trusting. Believing. Helping.

and yes I do wonder why me?

I'm tired of being sick and feeling like a cripple. I'm tired of hurting. I'm tired of being without my family. I'm drained worn down and I just don't have the energy.

I honestly wish someone could walk in my shoes right now. Just for a few hours and see what it's like. I'm really really frustrated and fed up.