still separated, headed for D?

[newmama]

Way to go, CW! Did it take you awhile to be able to concentrate enough to do it?

I don't know if this is just wishful thinking or what and I also don't know why I cannot visualize how we would reconcile! Weird.

At least what you are seeing is the "outcome" of what you want, so I bet it still helps. Can you believe it has been over 2 months since your H filed and nothing since then??? He probably filed to appease OW!

Actually, I couldn't picture how WH and I would reconcile for the longest time until I started meditating. Like you, I only pictured us "together." But for some reason I feel like I need to "see" the start of R because after being separated for over a year, and him bringing up D 4-5 times, I needed some positive thinking around how WH switching from D to R would be possible...to see how that might come about. Luckily I read a few different threads in piecing that kind of described how their H brought up R so that gave me a rough idea.

I just figured it would be him sitting on the couch and talking to me because that is exactly how he has brought up D every time- sitting on the couch. I close my eyes and picture him starting to talk but this time telling me "good" news!