he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

yes new mama, boyfriend knows i may meet someone else. i even told him i went out with someone else. my intentions are to wait for him through his stressful period but i cant put my life on hold like i did with h. and boyfriend knows it. we got very serious very quickly and i think it freaked him out when everything else in his life got heavy. i also realized that very serious while both going thru divorce isnt so smart. i told him i wouldnt want one of us to wake up years from now feeling we missed out on something. i dont think i would, but i dont want to take the chance that he would. i feel like that is what happend with h since we got married so young and he never had a serious girlfriend other than me. love boyfriend, really really do, hope it all works out with him in the end.

oh, and h knows very well that being nice to me gets him nowhere in terms of the divorce. i will not budge an inch and if anyhting, being nice makes it harder for us to split. he doesnt even talk to me about it.