he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

oh this relationship is finished, marriage dead and gone. its very hard however to ignore h when u have waited so long to hear the words, combine that with your current relationship being on hold.

i havent done anyhting yet and most likely wont. and if i did, i wouldnt be cheating since technically we are still married and i have not seen my boyfriend in several weeks because of the stress currently in his life. we are on hold, on a break, on a something and i am free to do what i want, no questions asked. assuming things return to normal and get serious again with boyfriend, i would never ever respond to h.

i will always love h and it is much easier to not see him or talk to him.

if anything, this recent flirting is a distraction from the ugly fact that psycho mistress now lives with my in-laws, is pregnant and my order of protection is up in less than 2 weeks. the little bit of fun ive had playing with h has relieved my reoccurring shingles pain for the moment. its just nice to know he has regrets and isnt over me. after what he put me through and our family through, its just nice to know.

tomorrow i go back to fighting for my money, talking to my lawyer and working with child psychologist regarding my son's adjustment to the divorce.