Nothing fits

[mishka422]

And apparently hope was too dangerous.

I asked Gabe if he wanted to go to the grocery store tonight with me and he said he wouldn't be good company but thanks for asking. In Gabe speak that means, "I'd rather have hot coals shoved up my a$$ than spend a moment with you....the bain of my existence."

so.....like I said.....I screwed it all up with simple honesty about my own feelings and even though I was sure to be clear that this wasn't about him, it was about our lack of verbal communication that leaves me guessing all the time, it was just enough to break the fragile situation we are in.

Lesson learned. Don't get emotional about anything, ever or it will bit you in the a$$.

Back to solitude.